Strange feeling. Very strange.

The Lama has a strange feeling about something.  A very strange feeling.  I have this strong undeniable urge to DO something, what? I have no idea, but something.  Perhaps it's the urge that everyone has, to accomplish something...  My gut tells me that this strange feeling is a sign, a sign that it's time to decide what I'd like to do, as far as education goes.

I've lately had the dilemma of wishing I could return home, to the small community college I spent my Freshman year in, possibly to change my major to something a bit more useful to me.  You see, my faithful readers, I made the foolish mistake of changing my plans for a woman.  Instead of remaining at the small college in which I majored in the performance of Classical Guitar, I followed a girl up to this university believing it was the right thing to do only to discover that it was in fact not.

Since being at this university I have been surrounded by nothing but negativity.  There have been no positive happenings here, and at first I was concerned that my karma was out of whack, that perhaps this was punishment for my deeds in a former life, and that my current one was trying to teach me a lesson of holding my own under pressure.  This may very well be the case, yet in this recent air of clarity I can see that my former thoughts of self-improvement may have been incorrect. 

Life sometimes does mysterious things, and I have a belief that although there is no such thing as divine intervention, there is an element of the influence of divinity in all our lives.  It does not matter if you define yourself as a believer or a non believer, there is some sort of influence of something in all of us.  Don't get me wrong, this is not a religious debate of any sort, I'm simply stating that the universe has an effect on us.  I like to think of it as divine nudging. 

Perhaps it's like this:  The path of least resistance is that which we were meant to walk, for instance, there is a storm coming and you are out in a field.  You have but three options, to hide, to rise above it, or to traverse it.  If you hide, you may last for awhile, but you are a man, you were not meant to hide forever.  If you try, you will die in the elements.  Man cannot fly, therefore you cannot rise above the storm clouds.  The only option you have is to traverse the storm and return to shelter.  It's probably just the way that the cold universe works, but it may be something more.  Maybe the universe is nudging you to take that first step.  Think about that.  I know I will be.